The right path

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Shit.

I haven’t updated this in awhile!

Well, a lot has happened. I found a certain level of peace in helping other people. It isn’t that I consciously set out to do this, but it kept repeating itself in various ways until I became aware that I was doing this. Maybe that which I have been so angry at my family for, ignoring each other’s needs, became something I began to see in others. In my own way I became a vehicle to help other people by finally acknowledging what had hurt me so much growing up.

On Facebook I kept posting shit like “If you’re depressed, do shit for other people, it really provides fulfillment” without really believing in it yet myself. There wasn’t a tipping point where I became truly aware of it, it just happened one day that I knew I was back on the right path. Everything that had fueled my rage for over a decade, everything that had me blowing money like a muddafakka and being¬†noncommittal to all of the amazing women who have graced me with their presence, became clear to me.

The simple act of asking people what’s on their mind, what goals, or dreams you could do anything to help achieve, even buying someone a dinner and sitting with them while their eyes light up as they describe even the smallest progress, that is truly fulfilling. I didn’t write this to bitch about my parents or extended family this time, but growing up I don’t think anyone listened or cared about what I wanted or what dreams I had. When you don’t water that seed in people, they rarely grow.

Water that seed in others and soon you will be standing in a beautiful garden. Oh, of course you’ll still need to watch your step, the roots of artists are tender and exposed, and often there will be some manure lingering around.

-J

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Re-signed the lease for my office space, $2150 a month

Some people might ask, “but Jason, do you need such a big office space?”

The answer is yes!

You could wear a potato sack as clothing, most of us do not. External expressions often mimic internal thoughts about oneself, in this case, the open-loft concept I live in allows me to constantly change things around, put up art, and adapt to whatever creative mindset I’m in at the time. My latest changes were to open the curtains and shed light on this space, right around the time I built this blog to shine a light on myself.

Life ain’t easy, but it shouldn’t be

I turned 35 recently, the rushing sense of impending wisdom riles the skin at the back of my neck. What will my excuse be when I know better?

I can’t ask Jack to drive all of the way, sobriety is actually enjoyable most of the time. One thing I have learnt in the last couple years is the risk of being soft. We as humans need to be tested, without the stressors, responsibilities, and connections to others and ourselves, we become lazy and adapt to our desires, rather than adapting our desires to serve the goals of our lives.

I hope this blog serves as a way to inspire others to change their wants to influence their lives in a future-orientated manner.

Now it is time to lounge around.

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